I'm not sure how to start this post, I'm really good at rambling so let's go from there. I have always had issues with my weight, I have NEVER been "skinny" not growing up, not in high school, not EVER. I'm just not built to be thin, and I'm okay with that, I enjoy having curves and muscle, I just don't enjoy being considered "fat." Well, with all of my hormone issues and medications I gained a lot of weight, I'm not going to say that I didn't indulge myself a lot more than I should have, because I totally did, but I was feeling sorry for myself and depression eating took the best of me. When Kyle left in January for this deployment I promised him that I would get down to my goal weight, which is 150 pounds, when I said that I didn't quite believe myself since I was looking in the mirror at a woman who weighed in at 234 pounds. Well, as of today, I weigh in at 164.
Last month I went to my doctors and I wanted my blood tests ran again, my FSH, Estrogen, Testosterone, Insulin levels, EVERYTHING including ultrasounds done. My ultrasounds still proved that my ovaries were covered in cysts, I was every bit disappointed that I could be, I had thought for sure that my ovaries were better. But good news followed that, there was a 33% reduction in the amount of cysts AND my ovaries were NORMAL in size in comparison to the 3 times enlarged that they were when tests were ran in October of last year!!! I didn't want to get my hopes up too high until my blood tests came back, so I waited patiently for 2 weeks until my next appointment, and Dr. Gomez (my regular OB/GYN) told me that every single test came back in the normal scale! I was so ecstatic that I almost cried right there in his office.
The ONLY thing I wanted to do was go home and tell my wonderful husband about the good news, to throw my arms around him and tell him that for the first time in my life everything was being read as normal. Unfortunately, I had to wait until Kyle was on skype to tell him.
The next step at this point is when I am finished with my cycle from the birth control is to discontinue using it for 8 weeks and see if I have a period on my own, if I do, it means that I ovulated, if I don't then well, we will go from there. I have hope for the first time in a long time regarding my fertility, I hope it is a feeling that doesn't go away.
